It takes alot to get me to post again, but your post, and the person that you are enticed me to post.
I too want my M back. I have the gift of a new and stronger relationship with God to keep me going. Lots of similarities, and our time lines are about the same.
This is a sincere question. I hope your answer will fill in some of my blanks.
I have made a peaceful life for myself. I have friends, and a career that I love, and children that pop in and out of my life in a fairly regular fashion. I am doing pretty good.
Sounds like you are the same.
But I have an unfailing sense of longing regarding my XH. It does not go away. Even in the fleeting thoughts of "I am so much better off"...... and wondering if I still want him back?
Is it like this for you, at all? I find time and distance makes it easier to think of a life without him, but then I keep going back to the hope and longing.
Do you sometimes wonder if you really want her back?
I know you will be truthful, you are a dignified and constant beacon of what is good and right. I so hope you say that you sometimes think that.
I am hoping that it is God who keeps me centered on wanting my family back together again.
Is it like this for you too?
Hoping the best to you. You are one of the good guys.
Bomb 1/06 D dismissed 11/07, attempt reconciliation. Premature. Divorce final October 31, 2008. OW looks like bad history. Over. Still hopeful. Baby steps. In R with my X.
