I just caught up and am so sorry to hear of the news regarding your dad. I hope you got to tell him that you did love him and forgave him. I know in moments like this, we tend to get closer with family and close friends. We then let it slip as we get back into our "regular" lives. I hope you are able to keep the closeness you undoubtedly feel now with your loved ones and work to make that love grow..... Take care of your mom like she took care of you in the past....but do not forget to take care of yourself as well. You have been through an awful lot in the last year or so...