I know that you will always love him. And to me, that makes sense. But, as we have discovered, that doesn't always mean we can be married to them!
I think you are doing a good job of balancing your wish that H would come back against time. Don't let anyone else tell you your timeline is wrong. You have to choose the one you are comfortable with. To some it will be to long, to others, not long enough. It only has to fit you.
