I've been separated from my husband of soon to be 13 years since 11/08...
I am currently living in Egypt for an expat job... I left home (Boston) in 11/06 with my H's blessings and encouragment... We were having a great time traveling back and forth and having a great time in both countries... In 4/08 he asked for divorce... Things have been going really ugly since then... When I went home in 12/08, the doorman refused to let me in saying that my H gave orders not to let me in... H has been lying in D papers saying that *I* ended the marriage in 06!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Although he encouraged me to renew the contract saying that we had been having quality time this way (btw, H job requires him constant travel as well)...
I believed him and I still do believe he was genuine when he said it in 07... But I have nooooooooooo clue what happened to him...
I have reason to believe that his Mom is the one behind it all... But, hey, he's a Man!
Anyways, his Mom threw out my living room, sent my belongings to storage and later his lawyer asked me to pick up the storage bill or else they'll give my stuff to charity...
Despite ALL this, I still have feelings for H. And I'm hoping for everything to somehow get better... And when I remember what he did to me, I hate myself and I even feel embarrased that I still do have feelings for him!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyone went through this? How do you deal with such mixed emotions of anger and pain mixed with an enormous feelings of love and longing for what we once had???
