Journaling:

I called XMIL last week to thank her for her Easter wishes. She told me that XH finally wrote to her some time ago and that she knew now where he was. He wrote to her that he cannot forget what happened to him when he was a child and that he still has a recurring dream about it.

She said she is quite angry with him and wrote him a letter saying that she told him many times that she was sorry about what happened and that she thought she was doing the right thing at the time. Everybody else did the same with their kids. He accused her often before and she has taken enough of the guilt and burden. He needs to get over it and therefore seek help by a professional or get some information on the Internet. She told him to come home because she needed him.

I told her that XH is angry with me because of some of the divorce settlement and she told me he wrote about it to her. I should not give in, and what he said to me was emotional blackmail. – I was so surprised that she took my side! – Furthermore, she said that I will always be her daughter-in-law no matter what. She has known me since I was a young girl and that the divorce is only a piece of paper and would not change anything.

On another note, the "interesting guy" I met last week phoned me to say that he enjoyed our time together and that we will stay in touch. I agreed. I found that he sounded very strange, as if he was emotional, but it could have been a bad line since he called my mobile phone.

As I said before, I have had quite a good time lately. I went to some live music performance and found a place for dancing. I hope to go to the next live music performance on Thursday and maybe dancing at the newly found place on Friday or Saturday.

One guy whose ad I answered wrote back and asked me to phone him. He told me that he started taking sailing lessons and that he and his friend had a dinghy with two masts – LOL. So I said that it must be a strange dinghy as I have never seen one with two masts. The second one must be a tooth pick – LOL. The whole thing sounded very suspicious and I cut the conversation short.

The dating site you have to pay for which I joined as a trial was on a TV programme similar to "Watchdog" recently. They were accused of not having all the matches and contacts they claim to have and of being a cheat. I didn't like the site either and stopped shortly after registering.