Thank you all for your comments and suggestions, I really appreciate the support and encouragement.
{{{{{Sandi}}}}} - As always, I greatly value your feedback and insight. To clarify, when I said
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"I'm not interested in sitting down and discussing anything with your attorney. If you have an attorney, I guess I will need to get one also. You know I love you and always will, and I will always treat you cordially and with respect especially around the kids, but if we get divorced, we will not be friends. Friends don't do this to each other."
I was very calm and succinct, and said it with as little emotion as possible. I think that is why she had such an incredulous look on her face.
And no, I'm not saying "It's in God's hands now" as a defeatist statement. I guess I mean that I'm resigned to the fact that I have done everything I can do, and it's only pushed her away, so i just have to let go and let God. I know I've been told that countless times, and that I've said "OK, that's what I'll do", but the reality is that I've been holding on to false hope, thinking that something I was doing would have some effect on her.
I am in a Christian support group, and last night's topic was on forgiveness, and I realize that I have a lot of work to do in that area. I have asked for God's forgiveness, and I've asked for Him to help me forgive myself, and I'm still not there yet, but I continue to read and pray. I'm sure that, and the support I am getting here, is what is getting me through this.
SmileysPerson - thank you so much for your uplifting comments. I really enjoy reading your perspective on things, and wish I had the gift of wordplay that you have. Next time I am in Coastal City, we'll have to sit down together and share a fine single malt.
