Yup, I'm crazy allright. Actually, I didn't know all of that about his family when I M'd him. I did know his father was an abuser but Gabe was abused by him also and was the exact opposite in every possible way. I actually confronted his dad while we were engaged and I witnessed him berating and belittling his mother. I told him if he ever treated her that way again in front of me that he would never see his son again. He was pretty stunned that this 'mere woman' would stand up to him and in his own home.
The Tiffany Co factory store was in Italy. Not sure where. Her H was stationed in Thessaloniki so she got to travel all over Europe while they were there.
Elaborate on the dreams? They're nothing steamy, they're actually very sweet and romantic which is why I wake up so humiliated and sad. Humiliated that I would even have that dream because it's so ridiculous. Sad that the romance couldn't be real. There you have it.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
hey sweetie stopping into check on you. i know all about those dreams too. know i am thinking of you!!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
It's funny you say that, Mish. The only sex-type dreams I ever have involve H and they are few and far between.
But I have had many dreams about other men (including a very handsome soap star for some reason and a former H.S. boyfriend) where the theme of the dream is LOVE, not sex. Like, the guy tells me how much he loves me and wants to be with me, or he holds me and kisses me and gets close to me, but not in a sexual way. Those dreams fill me with more longing than the sex-type dreams...
There is something just so NICE about cuddling and companionship.
And I think that's the difference. Sex is easy to get if you really want it and aren't picky about who and when. But that companionship is much more special and makes the sex so much more special.
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2
OMG!!!!! I swear, I need to stop being nice. I just don't enjoy being b*tchy either. No idea how to keep Gabe from clinging to me for emotional support.
I had sent Gabe a text this morning about a job I heard was open. That's it. Nothing more. He called me to ask about it and I told him all I knew and asked about our nephew. That was it.......I guess the kindness was just too much for his fragile self. He texted me about 20 minutes after we hung up to ask if I was going to lunch. Told him I have to pick my mom up (dialysis). He said that he could pick her up since he's not busy and I told him I appreciated the offer but I had to go home to take care of some things anyway. He told me to just go home and he'd pick her up since he was right over by the hospital anyway. I relented and accepted. His next texts were where I think my kindness toward him opened up too much:
G-Have I ever told you that I hate most of my life? I just can't get a break M-Now stop that. Has something else happened or is it the frustration talking? G-It's everything baby. My life sucks. M-I understand. Only you can change it. Start with a positive outlook. It's the power of positive thinking.
Yeah, probably shouldn't have responded, huh? Should have let him stew in his own misery.
I get the feeling that he and the broom must be fighting (which is really bad to him because he hates confrontation). Along with being out of work and no prospects on the horizon he's feeling pretty worthless. I know.....NOT MY PROBLEM. I just find it impossible to kick a dog when it's down.
I'm leaving right now to go home for lunch and take care of the things I needed to do. I know Gabe will be there waiting....don't know why that makes me nervous.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Ok, so I managed to get out of having to see him. He dropped my mom off at home before I could get back there so thankfully I won't see him. Unfortunately he is taking Marc to karate tonight and said he would see me tonight when he comes to get him. I guess I can only avoid him for so long. I just can't be sucked into his drama and melancholy. I work my butt off to stay out of that myself.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
