It's all ablazin'....

[blindsided1]

That's the other thing....I really can't see me taking the risk of letting him back in (if it came to that). If he left again, I couldn't bear to go through the last year and a half over again. I can't even imagine it. For a long time I truly wanted to see proof that their life wasn't perfect. I don't need the proof anymore. I don't care about their life and the one of the reasons I know I am close to the end of this is 1) I kinda feel like she did me a favor...I wouldn't have ever left him...no matter how awful he was...I stick even when it's not good for me. I hope I have changed in that respect. 2) I can say her name without throwing up APRIL APRIL APRIL APRIL APRIL. See? I kept my breakfast down.