It's good to hear that you're feeling stronger. It may come and go (still does with me to some extent) just cut yourself some slack.
I tend to rattle around a bit if my D's aren't with me. I suspect it's b/c it hasn't happend but a couple of times. I hope you have some fun though. Got any solid plans or even ideas?
All this takes time. We are all wordy and needy and stuck at times. That's why this BB is so valuable.