Thanks everyone, I am sorry for not replying, I am so busy.. but I REALLY appreciate all your words and I will reread later. Sandy, what post, what do they need to sort out?
Today I had an accident at college. The technician propped alot of 18mm 8'x4' sheets against the rack (not in it) .. I was bending forwards on the floor working and they all fell on my back and knocked me over. It was very shocking and painful as they weighed alot so they had to call an ambulance. I was shaking for an hour and I am still in pain, but nothing broken. It upset me, I wanted to call my ex and get some love and comfort, but of course I couldnt. I didnt feel as though I could. I had paramedics with me for an hour (not my idea, health and safety).. this is the fourth time in recent years people have called ambulances for me and the illness/vunerability thing I am sure was the reason he left. So I dont even know if I will tell him.
He didnt email me today. My projects are not going well (couldnt do any work for 3 hours). I feel a bit low and tearful and alone.
