WAW1 - Anticipation

[markhaving probs]

Thanks PM,

I hope your sitch comes right for you with your children. As you know I check in to your thread to offer my support and will always do so.

I will try and break my day up and do an activity as you suggest. It will break the day up and will give me a bit of focus.

Thanks again PM.

Best wishes,

Mark

[markhaving probs]

My wife just dropped the children off. She is still in a 'funny' mood, not happy not sad, she just seems herself before the bomb.

She mentioned to me she had received a letter from my sister saying how much she missed my W and her company and said I hope maybe we could get together sometime. My W said to me "when I reply to her it will be a goodbye letter".

I felt as though I had been stabbed in the heart, but I have to believe nothing she says at the moment as we are told. I don't know if she was trying to get a reaction from me but I just listened and said nothing.

I anticipated the money I owed her which she forgot, though she did say I should have given her some more money considering she buys snacks for the children. I said I would under normal circumstances but I need to watch the pennies at the moment. I also anticipated two other things that required attention to her, she never said anything or thanked me, but I would not have expected a thank you anyway.

[markhaving probs]

I went to the park yesterday for a walk and I was sitting on a bench condemplating things in my head and daydreaming. One of my closest friends who I have confided in about my situation came over and asked me what I was doing. i told him, we had a quick chat and off he went.

Today my friend called round to another friend of mine's house to say hello. My W was there with his W chatting. Unfortunately, my friend told my wife he saw me in the park and I looked suicidal. My friend is very loyal and he said he was not particularly nice to my W.

She called me earlier to tell me about this conversation she had and she said "Mark, I care about you and was worried because of the children". I told her I was not suicidal and was just sitting on a bench watching the world go by.

Has this been a inadvertant blackslide perpetrated by my friend, and if so is there anything I can do to restore things. I am detaching, DR'ing etc but I wonder if this has put me back some.