Game Over?

[dday101798]

If she were to question me about it (ie wanting her back), I will have to do something I never like people to do to m and that's answer a question with a question: If I were to have left you behind and lived my life with someone else directly in front of our kids; would you want me back? If I were to ahve said all the nasty things about you in court to hide the fact of this and take our children away from you; would you want me back?

Time again to put the shoe on the other foot for a moment, BUT, that is if the conversation ever happens.

And that is where I am at today. Call it "anti-db'ing" but that is a logical question, if I where to have done what she has done to me, would she take me back?

The answer would be highly vocalized "no".

Yet, I still feel a compationate love for this woman and don't know how to let it go.

Completely stinks. How can someone rip your whole life apart in light of their own selfishness and yet you still want them to wake up and be back in your life?

TAking the day off from work. I had a horrible weekend and the weather today is supposed to be delightful.

I should also hear from my attorney today and get the scoop on what transpired between STBX and her attorney last Friday.

Also, inlight of being highly broke untill Friday, I think all can do is take the boys out for dinner. It would be nice, sit outside and eat, and chat. Yet I feel highly compelled to ask 'her' to join.

uggh,

Somewhere in the mist of my horrible weekend, I put our wedding photo back out. I do the strangest things somethimes.

edit- Since her meet on Friday with her attorney over the 'final' paperwork, I have not seen OM's car at "her" house?