I am so proud of your personal success! Losing weight and working out takes a lot of self discipline. It is hard to do when one is happy and everything is grand......but to do that when everything is not grand is very difficult. Good for you!
You are gradually doing better. The longer you can go without crying, the better. When you feel yourself getting to that place where you are wanting to cry.....or the tears start before you know it.....have something that you can immediately get involved doing and use that same "discipline" you have to wort off the tears.
I hope you had a small insight of what we mean by GAL. You were able to go for a short period without thinking of your stitch and that was like recess for your body and brain! People do not think it is possible when they first come on board and we start talking about GAL, and are not even interested in it. But.....again I think you have to make yourself start doing it....not b/c you feel like it or have a desire to do it. Of course you are not going to want to GAL b/c your S was your life. That's all one can think about. So, you have shown that you do have strength and discipline. I am proud of you and I believe you are a suvivor and even though your H does not seem to see what he is losing......you must step up and do what is best for you and your children.
Continue with your good work. I hope you have some more things planned in the way of GAL.......and something just for you that does not include your children. You really need something to uplift your spirits and that will make you feel good about yourself. I don't know why we women feel that we are being selfish when we allow something for "us" b/c in the long run, it is good for our families also. When Mama's happy....everybody's happy!
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
