Back here again!!

[naej]

Cyprus is brilliant- H and I went there for part of our honeymoon and it was beautiful. I'm jealous.

Last time I went with my x was part of our silver wedding trip.
I have been back since on the premis of getting back on the horse as I didn't wont to feel I couldn't go back.
Fabulous snorkelling. Ay Nappa, bit lively for me, but so beautiful.
The Troodos mountains are worth a trip if you have time.
Oh I am green just thinking about it.
You will have a fabulous time and probably put on a few pounds but I am sure you will hardly notice tehm.

[MsMelancoly]

Your travel plans sound so wonderful! Oh, how I envy you!!

[JCJ]

Ooooh, you guys have got me really excited now. I can't wait!! I'm feeling the stress at the moment - mostly because nothing is happening.

I had an intense night of dreams last night which exhausted me. Mostly to do with frustration I think. The most vivid was that my family and H's family had got together and had started divorce proceedings thinking that was what was best for me without consulting me. I was lashing out at them and trying to shout saying that they had no idea how much work I had put into this and they had just ruined it all. Hmmmmmmm... I woke up with the duvet and sheets in a ball and a freaked out looking cat on the floor beside the bed. Bless her!

[mishka422]

Poor kitty!!!! I've scared my poor little dog to death several times screaming in my sleep. He took to sleeping balled up behind my knees but now only does that when I put him up there while still in a semi-conscious state. I think he feels safer that way.

Man.....I want to go on some fabulous, exotic vacation! You have my pipedream juices flowing.

[One Day]

Hello Julia!

I wasn't going to write anything but then I thought I might aswell come out with another one of those Db type sentences that we all know so well.....just because nothing is happening for you doesn't mean nothing is happening for him. There is probably progress happening beneath the surface.



Cyprus really is gorgeous- there's a lovely cafe towards te North at the birthplace of Aphrodite- beautiful views and a gorgeous secluded beach beneath it. Highly recommended!

L. xx

[iamlost]

Hi Julia! Your Cyprus holiday sounds wonderful--enjoy yourself, you deserve it.

[JCJ]

Hey Guys

(((Mishka))) I'm sorry you had such awful dreams. They seem to have died down a bit now but it is horrible as you can't control them and then they leave me feeling sh!t the next day.

(((Lisa))) thank you again for you wise words and reminding me. I shall try and look out for that area.

(((iamlost))) great to see you again, thank you

I had a slightly emotional weekend which brought up some things I need to think about. The reason was my family. My eldest sister, C, asked me if she could wear the dress she wore at my wedding (she was a bridesmaid so wore a bridesmaid's dress) to my other sister J's wedding in the summer.

I didn't really know what to say as I was on the spot, so I said I didn't mind. In fact I do mind as it would be extra hard seeing her sitting there in that dress at a wedding. I talked to J about it and she was unhappy anyway as C would look like a bridesmaid when she wasn't.

I came to the conclusion that whether or not I was over the whole thing with H (which I am clearly not) or not it was really insensitive of C. J sorted it for me anyway, by telling her she couldn't wear it and said to her to be a little more sensitive However, it did go to show me that I am going to have to prepare mentally for that day as everything deep down is still very raw.

There has been nothing from h, it is coming up to two weeks but then there has been no house issues. I did send a really brief message to touch base on FB just laughing over a guy that has appeared on there that used to be a Head Steward at the Albert Hall but he hasn't replied. I was worrying about the lack of contact, I'm not so much now.

I don't know if it even matters but it is bothering me slightly. Should I tell h I am going on holiday? I have checked with the agents that nothing should happen with the house so I don't know if there is need to, I guess it is a natural thing that I would do.

Sorry to query over a small thing it seems a bit pathetic.

[mishka422]

Not pathetic at all!!!!!! Don't say that!

IMO H doesn't need to know about your holiday. He lives his own life, you live yours. It's not as if you will be cut off from the world. Your family knows where you will be right? In case of emergency, he could always get in touch with someone in your family, right?

What would the reason be for letting him know your are going on holiday? Just so he knows you're living? Trust me, he already knows that.

[JCJ]

Thanks Mishka

I just thought if something were to happen with the house move really (and it is also my instinct to tell him!). But then, I suppose I've told the agents I'm not going to be here. everything can wait a week.

I'm off tomorrow, I'm so excited!

I've been to the Chelsea Flower show today. I'll post pics in the alternate universe

[iamlost]

Hmm, I disagree. An opportunity to tell him you're off on an exciting holiday is a good thing. It gives him an inkling how great your life is.

Oooohhh, I'm so jealous that you get to go to the Chelsea Flower Show!!! What are they doing with sustainable gardens this year? I bet it's magnificent...