Hey, Thanks for remembering me! we all go through heck here don't we? I think, if I could be honest with you guys, I think I would rather have him gone..I am floundering for the kids. That and money is really the reason I have taken him back all those times.
No Lisa is not making herself happy. She has totally lost herself. I am crying as I type this because I feel like a failure here, I am running myself into the ground being a supermom and avoiding dealing with my maritial issues. I have kids in ball and I am constantly going and have had a cold for over a month. My kids are from 14 y/o to 7 months and I have my hands full with 6 of them. Now I love it but it is just me taking care of them. Plus I homeschool my 14 y/o.
The kids are fairly happy. We dont argue around them, really we put on a great show for them. They are happy to have dad home but they do notice how much less they do with mom now. See when he was gone the kids and I did alot of stuff. Now granted that we have added 2 more since then and it is busier. The kids love their sister who just turned 2 and their new baby brother. But mom is stressed instead of being a fun mom again.
I am just scared..life goes by so fast and I want to have a good one but also want to give my kids a good one.
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lisa
Me:37 H:38 6 kids first bomb 8/05 (ow involved) piecing 7/06 second bomb 3/07 ow involved wash rinse repeat.... huge move to start over 2/11 more affairs H left for good 8/12
