She's called twice today. On the one hand she seems to be finding excuses to talk to me. On the other hand, she seems to want to make sure I know it was just the booze talking last night and that nothing has changed. So I imagine I am back to the rule of not believing what I hear in that regard right? I tell you the one crack in my total confidence is when she said if I just waited up for her she was ready to admit it was a mistake. It makes me wonder if the 180 I need to do is to be more available to her in those moments. Probably not though. I mean can you really say a marriage hinged on the fact that I went to bed. I don't know. I feel like my sitch would be a lot clearer to me as an outsider, so any advice appreciated.
