WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 9

[confusedinpa]

I wound up replying to her email saying "Sorry to hear about that. I hope things will work out for the best. How’s your day going?"

She replied complaining that she was tired and her big toe really started hurting her last nite, so right now it hurt just sitting at her desk.

I waited about 30 minutes and called to joke about who's "butt" was she kicking that she hurt her toe. She said in her mind or in real life? We both laughed. I told her that I knew it wasn't mine and just wanted to make sure one of the boys wasn't giving her a hard time. She talked some more about her toe and things that were going on with her work. I asked if she thought lunch could work out this week and she said most likely Thurs since she has to go order the B'day cake tomorrow and then pick it up on Friday, but would let me know for sure. I told her that would be fine.

I then switched to the tactical stuff related to the kids that I wanted to talk to her about. One of the things was how my 3 year old had lost his nightmare stone. She had said that she was going to get him another one. I told her I found it yesterday when I was doing the laundry. I also told her that the boys and I were planning to pick one out for me since I didn't have one. She said that she could have the boys get me one for Father's day if that was ok. I said that I had really wanted to make it an experience with the boys where they picked one out for me, but I would be OK with it if that's what she wanted to do (especially since I only have them 1 day of the weekend so it's hard to run errands with them since my 7 year old has dodgeball that day as well).

I see that my journaling has really picked up today. Not sure if the child support thing has got me rattled so I'm stressing again or the fact that it has just past 4 weeks.

I know I've also been less dark than normal (calling her to respond to her email vs. just ignoring it until she brought it up when she calls in the evening). I need to be careful not to be too pushy/pursuing.

I'm going to leave work early to go to the gym since one of my buddies are still tied up with his father in law's funeral. We rescheduled the outing for next Tues. It's for the best anyway since I missed going to the gym on Sunday. I have my therapist appointment tomorrow afternoon and have a lunch set up with one of my friends who I used to work with on Friday.

I also just got off the phone with one of my buddies and we're going to try and setup an Atlantic City run for Sunday nite (one of my friends have a place down there that we can crash at). So it looks like my week is getting booked up. I was actually worried since I wasn't sure how I was going to handle Memorial day being by myself.

So it sounds like I'm progressing on getting a life. Now I'm just not sure how to get my wife back.....