Dug into the phone records more today. Not sure why I felt the need to torture myself. I had to call and talk to my husband more about the situation. Told him it was still really bothering me.
He said he was getting in too deep with our friend. That they both were in a lot of pain and were able to talk to each other about what was going on in their lives. He said that's why he had to cut it off. I won't go into all the details but he did acknowledge my right to be upset and he said he understood why I was still questioning things. He apologized.
He said we need to start talking to each other vs. friends. He still has a lot of anger and hurt to work through as do I. We agreed just to keep things light and to have a fun time at the lake this weekend.
I told him just because we connect (not just physically)but emotionally it doesn't mean that we're getting apathetic and things will go back the way they were. It will take hard work and counseling on our part. At the same time, I want to feel like we are working on things and starting to make progress no matter how small it is.
