She can't make up her mind

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I recently started to feel that my w/ may have done too much to sabotage our marriage chances.

Simply put, she left me and moved on to another man because I was in a crisis trying to figure out how to get an education and be a better husband.

I don't know what she could do that would allow me to feel safe with her again.

Just don't know. If this trip yields nothing, I will end it for her.