It's all ablazin'....

[blindsided1]

Believe me...I wanted to laugh. But, I didn't. You know, I feel pretty good lately and my feeling for my SBXH are simmering down. But, there are still times when I am soooo angry at him for doing this. I think about K and how her Dad just isn't there for her. He is with his son all the time and not his daughter except for 1 day a week. I suppose that I should look at it from another point of view...I get to be with her and raise her my way, and knowing what kind of screwed up person H is...it's probably better that he doesn't have a daily influence on her. But, I still get angry for destroying our family, for starting a new one and for walking out on us. I say US because he did..he walked out on his family. I hope he realizes that some day...

Other than that lots of stuff going on. Lots of changes coming. I am looking for a new job. I've been with my company for 10 years and I am not happy anymore. Times are rough. The owner is in way over his head....debt-wise. I'm worried we wont be here in 6 months. And, a lot of the stress is being put on me. I am carrying the burden of cleaning up his debt mess and the messes created by others over the last 10 years and it is a lot of pressure on me. I'm stressed to the max, not appreciated and under-paid. I know times are rough, but people ARE hiring. So, I'm looking. Wish me luck. I could really use a turn of events....that are good, not hard.