So many opinions, so much advice from so many different points of view. Pup, I don't think y'all are going to be able to resolve this without some MC and some IC. Patterns are so hard to break, this one is deeply ingrained, and there's so much pain involved--I think you're going to need some advice from someone who not only is a professional, but can talk with you both and get to know you better than we can here. Not that you shouldn't bring this here, but I think that is where you're going to find resolution. Yes, finding the right person is tricky, but I think if you ask around you'll get some decent referrals. Doesn't have to be a psychologist; a pastoral counselor can also be helpful. Just a matter of finding the right match.
M60 H52 D20 M14 yrs OW-old gf from 1986 bomb-5/18/08 H filed for D-9/10/08 D final 4/24/09 xH remarried (not OW) 2012