well the NC was broken today by W, she called me and wanted to talk while i was making dinner......yeah didnt really go to well she said some pretty painful things to me.....mostly the usual like why cant you get over me and realize it is over, you will never have a chance with me again, but the one that really hurt the most and i stayed strong thru all the other things but i will admit i did break down when she told me that "it was harder for her to leave our dogs, than it was for her to leave me".....
before the last statement i was really just validating what she was saying and letting her vent what she felt needed to be said. But after she said that i broke down and she just kept going so finally i just told her that even though it doesnt sound like it that i am doing good, and that she needs to do what will make her happy, that i had to go.
She told me that the easy thing would be to go back to me because i am such a great guy, blah blah blah, but she doesnt love me so she doesnt want that. But that she wants to be BEST FRIENDS.... to which i responded that eventually we will move on and how can i be best friends with her knowing and see her with somebody else...to which she replied well then we dont have to be friends....i told her the choice was hers. And she said that i am a great best friend so why would she want to throw that away.
Of course after every statement she made, she ended it with I am not trying to be mean or hurt you by what i am saying.......so atleast she said that because that makes it all better.
