(((Mishka))) I'm sorry you had such awful dreams. They seem to have died down a bit now but it is horrible as you can't control them and then they leave me feeling sh!t the next day.
(((Lisa))) thank you again for you wise words and reminding me. I shall try and look out for that area.
(((iamlost))) great to see you again, thank you
I had a slightly emotional weekend which brought up some things I need to think about. The reason was my family. My eldest sister, C, asked me if she could wear the dress she wore at my wedding (she was a bridesmaid so wore a bridesmaid's dress) to my other sister J's wedding in the summer.
I didn't really know what to say as I was on the spot, so I said I didn't mind. In fact I do mind as it would be extra hard seeing her sitting there in that dress at a wedding. I talked to J about it and she was unhappy anyway as C would look like a bridesmaid when she wasn't.
I came to the conclusion that whether or not I was over the whole thing with H (which I am clearly not) or not it was really insensitive of C. J sorted it for me anyway, by telling her she couldn't wear it and said to her to be a little more sensitive However, it did go to show me that I am going to have to prepare mentally for that day as everything deep down is still very raw.
There has been nothing from h, it is coming up to two weeks but then there has been no house issues. I did send a really brief message to touch base on FB just laughing over a guy that has appeared on there that used to be a Head Steward at the Albert Hall but he hasn't replied. I was worrying about the lack of contact, I'm not so much now.
I don't know if it even matters but it is bothering me slightly. Should I tell h I am going on holiday? I have checked with the agents that nothing should happen with the house so I don't know if there is need to, I guess it is a natural thing that I would do.
Sorry to query over a small thing it seems a bit pathetic.
