Hi I am new here but have been reading your threads for the last few days.
My story: My H left me and my 3 children 6 weeks ago. He met a woman and developed a friendship and of course it went further. Things started to happen in mid Feb and he came home from worm 6 weeks ago and just told me he was leaving us. He showed no remorse and it was just heartbreaking. The children witnessed the whole thing. It was as if he could not get away quick enough.
I had my suspicions over the last couple of weeks before he left but he denied it all of course. Told me how much he loved me and the family and would never do anything to hurt us. She also has kids and he left and moved straight in with her. How he could do this for someone he really did not know is beyond me. We had been together for 20 years. He is still seeing the kids but it is so hard when he comes around. He will not talk about what he has done, not to me or anyone come to think of it.
Last week he was unsure of things he had caught her lying to him and even though I told him what kind of a person she was he agreed with me. Instead of taking himself off on his own to sort himself out he went back to her despite all of this.
I really think he is having a mlc but the way in which he has destroyed our lives is just devastating.
I feel like I am in limbo waiting for something but I don't know what. Even now despite everything I do love him. I don't want to I want to hate him - maybe that will come in time I don't know. I think it is the disbelief that he could ever do such a thing to us all. 7 weeks ago we were a happy loving family and now feel we have nothing left.
I get up every day for my children and am trying to keep strong for their sakes but feel my life, as I knew it is gone. I am trying to look positive and to the future but it is so hard to do.
If anyone has any answers or tips please let me know as I feel I need all the help I can get right now.