Well, I just got back home and I guess I totally missed the ball on this one! I actually had a pretty good day......I was out, met a friend, saw a movie, went to get my hair cut, met up with a friend for dinner, returned some phone calls and came home just now.
I thought I did great today with the H, bc......well, I did need to know that he is not saying one thing and doing another.
I really was not trying to manipulate or maneuver him into talking to me. I think if we have agreed that we are tabling the D, until we talk and then I hear something different...I have the right to know if things are changing......bc then things change for me too. I thought I was being fair.
But, ok...I can see how all of what pearlharbr quoted sounds like pressure. sigh. I need to reasses how I am dealing with him. I am not sure what to say....or what to do....I think I need to concentrate on myself more and I will just continue to improve myself and I will definately NOT initiate contact again.
I have been reacting to what I thought H might be doing.......I just need to get to a place where I am not thinking about him....
well...ok...i guess tomorrow is another day. I have planned a lunch with a friend and then we are going to do some shopping cuz I just thought I need to do that for myself....not too extravagant.....but, I never buy things for myself.....and so that will be a 180 for me!
