Well, things are changing, alright. My divorce was final at the end of April, and I've been super-casually (platonic, really) internet dating for a few months, getting my GAL ducks in a row AGAIN (they keep falling out of line, slippery little suckers), basically doing my best impersonation of a lean, mean fighting machine.
So, with a big event in May and my divorce final, I decide it's time to to bring a guy that I like out with me and introduce him to friends.
Well, turns out we had an amazing time together, he's all that and a bag of chips.
But, to complicate matters, my exH was at the same event, which I expected, but didn't expect that he would be looking so terrible, and sad. He gives me the saddest smile maybe ever smiled?...but doesn't speak a word to me. I was preparing myself for him to show up with a date himself, so I was floored, but packed that emotion up for later.
The new man and I leave and have a multiple-hour dinner together and we kiss goodnight. He texts me the next day he smiled all the way home, it's all very romantic...
But, I spend the next two days pretty much reeling. I thought I would feel, I don't know, triumphant??? seeing H, but instead all I felt was sad. I really think this new guy is great, but I am scared: scared he will hurt me, scared I would be making another mistake, just scared.
And then the kicker:
My H writes me an e-mail today and asks: how are you?
How are you?
Three simple words that a man that used to write me adoring, love e-mails hasn't written to me since he left a year and two months ago.
Of course, he's curious about this new guy, that's probably why.
So, what do I SAY? I want to re-establish a friendship with him, this could be my chance. I am truly interested in seeing where things go with this new person. I don't know if I want to DB anymore to him--he hurt me too much--but I DO love him. I would like to resolve things with him, at least.
