Thanks Burt and Limbo and bobbijo...
I didn't call back...but I know that we will talk by tomorrow when he is supposed to be picking up the kids. I would never play the kids against him for my gain...it wouldn't help and would definately be the wrong thing to do. I haven't cried today so far...(maybe just a tear this morning) ;)...so that is another goal. Get thru the rest of the evening.
Burt, I appreciate your straightforward reply. I feel like I need that sometimes...someone who just tells it like it is. And you are right..he may just lose me. That really helped me today because trust me..he is losing. I will see him tomorrow and am going to take your other advice as well...even if I have nowhere to go...I am going to look like I do! Then it really will be mysterious, even to me!!!