First things first, Harpo. In retrospect, every one of us on the DB boards can see things we did wrong and has to deal with a flood of emotions. Panic, sadness, fear, anger, loss, and much more that is wrapped up in every yadda yadda and blah blah in you had in your post.
This is all perfectly normal. The bomb has just dropped and you can't see a way out - YET.
Take a couple breaths and focus on what Forest is asking. He has a way of centering you that you need right now.
Sorry you find yourself here, but we are along to support you. You are not alone.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
