Thanks Andabelle... actually, I am not coping well with it.. I am soooo tired, exhausted, been in the workshop all day. This is the WORST timing in 2 years for him to have done this, I have 4 days left to make my sculptures (still not made), I am incredibly stressed, then we have 4 days to clean and paint and rebuild the studios and install the work next week. In between, this weekend and next, I have to do sketchbook stuff, take photos, make a portfolio. I could cry from tiredness and worry. In 2 weeks (1 June) it will all be over.. but then.. will he have decided there was nothing really there? My head is fried right now.
Why did he say he was scared? What of? We got back together 18 months to the day from when he left me. Wierd hey. I dont even know if we are back together, he didnt say a word to me. He hasnt even contacted me all day (nor me him. Should I have????). I cant take this.. WTF am I supposed to be doing now? Backing off, not initiating and giving him space STILL (like the db mantra).. OR.. am I now supposed to be showing interest? Pursueing? Should I phone him?? I will wait a bit to see if he calls and if not, I will call him...
I just want to see him.. when I was with him, I just want to kiss him all the time (I didnt).. I literally felt 13 years old again. But I cant just be excited, I'm on tenderhooks wondering what he's thinking.
