Drawing a line and grabbing the seeds!

[cire2]

Hi MM,

You're right about the cheeseless tunnels. I'm insane at times when I follow feelings instead of logic.

We've been together for 2 yrs. Trust for me is hampered from her having an EA PA and some deception. For her its about me slipping into old habits and saying mean and hurtful things.

I did this again last night, yikes! After a weekend of racing and a few adult beverages I stopped by her place unannounced. BAD BAD idea! That pisses her off and I've told her I wouldn't do that anymore. God I'm stupid! Well I may have officially driven the final nail in this time. She texted me she doesn't love me but she once did. Also to leave her alone to cry by herself and she'll never give her heart to anyone again.

I think I've really screwed the pooch this time. Ugh!

I'm looking for hope but just not seeing any now. What was possibly working on her mind and heart has just been totally screwed up by me again. Why can't I be still?

cire