d-day coming soon - help !

[misshim]

Sure enough Saturday came and H finally came to see D-4 around 5ish. He brought supper over and thanked me for watching her for him (he never called to ask he just never showed up till 5ish) working on fixing up his brothers house (I guess). I really didn't want to go out for the evening, but yes he did want to stay overnight and foolishly I let him. H on the couch when I got home around 12:30.

On sunday he stayed at our house all day with d-4. He mowed the lawn again and fixed barb wire fence so cows don't get out. He was so nice, then he gave me the Marital settlement agreement and wanted me to sign. I said no, he told me he had to turn it in 10 days before the court date and needed my signature. I said no my lawyer will look at it. One nice thing is he hasn't changed his mind, I get our farm he wants nothing from me. I then told him that this "nice" arrangements we have now will change come D-day, no lawn mowing and no putting d-4 to bed. I can't believe he asked me why couldn't it continue. I just told him that he wanted this D and come that nasty day our lives will completely be changed forever. As usual he said nothing.

Even after all of that he wanted to stay for d-4 bedtime, then he hung out with me till 10:30 then he said that it was time for him to go. I walked him to the door and he gave me the biggest hug. I know he shouldn't be hanging out with me but it is so nice, we don't fight (we very rarely did even when we were together) The bad part is, in my mind I almost feel that our relationship is better with divorce coming up. I don't want to lose my marriage but maybe we need to and someday maybe we will find each other again. If it was meant to be.