It is sad and as i suspected today it is bugging me. just how easily i am fooled by him and other aspects that are the continual cycle of all of this.
it is so important to get a life and begin living. i remember that being said so early on on these boards and in the book... and i thought i was .. and to an extent i was..but not as much as i am now. and now it isn't a ploy..it is just me... moving forward.
it is hard. Being single is hard. Again, it isn't what we chose or wanted but it is a reality. So I just keep choosing to go towards God - towards healing the hurt from my recent garbage and my hurt from the past - and becoming whole. Man oh man was i broken!!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
Hey Caz, I was broken too, between my childhood and this whole thing, I still am. But slowly, I am starting to heal and become whole. I think that God has a hand because I believe I would not have been on this journey of healing and self discovery if this MLC didnt happen.
Me as well beginner. The healing that is happening because I have been FORCED into this has been amazing. HOWEVER - I sure wish I would have gotten a clue to this "healing" thing long before this!! HA!
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
learned recently that my x thinks i would still take him back....
feel humiliated, like he is the "catch that got away" and I am the old shoe thrown away.
feel like a fool... because i do miss him and wish we could be..but can't and he wont
i have not said ANYTHING like that in jeez' a year. i am alouf but not mean and definately not over kind when he is here or when i see him at things for d12.
i am so glad summer is coming. wont have to see him at sport or school events.
i hate this.
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
Holidays are difficult, but as time goes on they do get better.
Keeping busy has really helped me.
Sometimes we just have too much time to think.
It is time to live.
On made the decision to work on Memorial Day. I was around all my caring co-workers. The day went fast.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
Glad you were able to busy yourself Trusting. Smart move!!
I have been struggling with jealousy lately. Jealous of x and how many women he has been with and "TrieD" to have relationships with. He is onto another -- broke the heart of a couple in between. I think since the break up since Bimbo in August he has had hmmm 4 "relationships"..
What am I jealous of?
Stupid things.. how easily he gets women how easliy they fall for him how easily he gets to just "have fun"
and of course..that through all of the women .. he does not want me.
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
