I do want to start over. Right now H is here, out pulling weeds and wanting to help in any way he can. We just had a pleasant, fun convo, I'm trying not to talk about anything right now. There is a time and place for that.
Too late on the moving out - he has been out for a week. My gut feeling, which is something I ignored over the last few years, tells me he has ended it. If not for me, then for his kids.
He is trying - there has not been a time when I could not get ahold of him or he has been here. Am I deluding myself? Possibly, but I know that if we are to move forward, I have to try and trust again.
My biggest challenge right now is to not get angry and righteous, because that will turn him away.
Maggie
Me:47 H:49 3 grown kids Together: 29 years Sep: 5/8/09
