WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 8

[confusedinpa]

Well I called my buddy and am going meet up with him for beer and wings. I need to knock myself out of this funk......

This really sucks!

I allowed myself to get a glimmer of hope from last Friday's conversation where it sounded like she wanted to find a therapist so she could work through her issues so we can work on us. I need to remind myself that the brutal facts right now is that she has filed for divorce, moved out and still has not changed her mind. This is the reality.

I sent my lawyer an email to find out what I can do about the child support hearing. I hopeful that we can get what my wife and I agreed to as the support - otherwise the number could easily double to almost $2500/month! Hopefully I'll get some good news from my lawyer. I did tell my wife that I was going to talk to a lawyer about this. Maybe that's why she was acting a little off this morning. Who knows, I'm not going to waste any more time trying to read her mind.

I need to work on me and get a life so that either way this goes, I will be ok as I will continue to be the best CIPA I can be.

I wish I was actually as confident/strong as this post is starting to sound, but it is helping me get focused on what I have to do....

This sucks but I must not just survive, but need to thrive.