he is back, i think

[mdoodles]

h is all pissy today because business is slow.

which of course will make him pissy in general, pissy at me and disconnected.

i have to tell u, our problems were never about us, never about me, never about what i did or didnt do.

it was always based on his mood, his view of the world and what he felt was the cause of his unhappiness.

im going to try to deal with his moods differently this time around, but i dont even know if it will help at all.

im not like him, im not like most people. i have so much to deal with at the moment, like so many of you, but i always have a smile on my face and a positive attitude.

i always see the glass half full. i wish he could too.

im dealing with foreclosure on my beautiful beautiful big house, trying to figure out where we will go, dealing with the affair, dealing with the new business that is making no money, trying to figure out our health insurance plan, dealing with creditors calling for h, dealing with h being home, taking care of my son, wondering where he will go to school in the fall etc.

but u know what? being miserable about it doesnt help.