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I guess my main problem is I don't feel like I have a 'plan' if I did I would be able to try n follow it and that would help me. I feel like I have bits and parts of a plan, with 180's, acting as if, and not initiating contact etc but that the rest is confusing and unclear, I feel so mixed up.

mnt I guess you are right I do need to see even the minimal contact as a way to show I am doing just fine. I will think about how to do this.

orchid, thanks for the views from your friend that helped you. I appreciate that and it does make me think and helps view things differently.

Thanks for all the support guys. I feel it all helps keep me going and is great to have people to 'chew' things over with when trying to make some decision and to vent to when the going gets tough!!