So H came over. No talks whatsoever. He is thinking of how to make that work change. He told me he asked 2 professionals-friends what should be his priority (their oppinion), get his personal life straight first or work. He got different answers, the one that said private life should be a priority is happily married, the other one saying work has to come first is newly divorced (hint hint)... I didnt comment.
We slept together with our D in bewteen (he promised to her she could), went to the wedding -wonderful wedding, my cousin looked amazing, at a liitle church by the sea- went for lunch with my family (parents, brother's family) and came back and he left to go to work.
There was no connection moments. We were both doing our own thing, he was mostly dedicated to the kids. Yesterday I asked him to come with me to the super market cause I cant lift groceries with my back issues. He did and was stunned I was checking prices, he kep saying "why do you do that?". I think I sensed a pure quilt feeling of "if it's true you need to check on prices then I have really f@cked up". All the years we were together we were not big spenders but we wouldnt ever check prices on food and stuff.. As you can all understand, I have to -the last year- be careful. He insisted on paying the bill. He also said he will buy the wii for the kids when the kids asked me if we have saved enough to buy it.
Ian, I read all 62 of them and still cant find the answer. I think he has turned a point accepted he cant feel loving towards me but he is willing to settle for a family IF we have no tension between us.
Today I looked "stunning". I wore a silk floral dress, (Hale Bob for those who know the brand) and I got many comments (one guest wished me to get married also and was amazed I have 2 kids already). H never said anything to me. For those who will ask "what did you do?", I commented how good his pants looked on him.
He left with no kiss, nothing. We had a comfrotable weekend between 2... friends (if that). The way I see it, I either wait till he is work issue is resolved being relaxed, happy and calm and living my OWN life independent of him, end it now because I see no future or "consider us together" and get upset and mad all the time. I will go for the first option... K
