Could use some insight...long...

[volleydog]

Yesterday...

Well I decided I wasn't going to go over to W house between working the concession stand and S's cub scout bonfire...Call the W after working and she is disappointed since she needs to get a new dishwasher and didn't want to take the kids. So I end up going home getting changed and just going over. I shouldn't probably have but it gave me time with the kids...

We go to the bonfire have a good time just chatting laughing ect. On the property is an old house so I tell her that I'm going to go check out the inside, she follows me, I didn't ask her to go. So we're walking through this house and I just wanted so much to just throw her against the wall and start kissing her...didn't...So I was making smores for our kids and I ask W if she wants one sure but she says she likes the marshmallows just just lightly brown not not burnt like me...I make the best damn marshmallows ever apparently even other women were telling me how good they looked, didn't realize it was such a big deal so we shared it.

Driving home my D asks if I'm spending the night, usually I'd take the heat and say no but I wasn't going to do that this time...So W says I don't think so...While I hate that the D says things like this I like it so the W knows the K's want us to be a family.

Now I THINK she was flirting with me during the night looking back and I missed it. The other night talking about the D I told her I wanted a few things for sure...Then during same conv I repeated (in a humorous way) I wanted those things and to ML one more time after the bonfire...Funny thing she didn't say no she said How do you know I don't have plans...Well it gets over at 9pm and do you have a babysitter, she says no, I say great...She just says I'm not sure it's a good idea...BTW there has been NONE since the S.

Looking back I'm wondering if she wanted ME to bring it up again and take charge. One thing she has repeatedly said is she hates making all the decisions and also she doesn't feel she can count on me. The counting on me is why I went over early but I get the feeling I blew it on the ML thing, I think she would have. Also it wasn't just about sex it's about me being decisive.

So I'm not sure STILL where to draw a line with her about being able to count on me and the fact that she wants a D so I shouldn't worry about that anymore.