Now I am all confused again. I hadn't planned on just moving back unannounced, but rather discussing it with her next week and saying "I'm really not comfortable with the current living situation, and as the kids school year is up on June 22, I would like to plan on moving back to the home then as it won't be affecting their schoolwork. I could see it working out 3 ways. 1) We go back to the original setup where I'm in the home, and you are in the apartment, and the kids shuffle back and forth. 2) We make a real concerted effort to try and work on cohabitation, and see if that can lead to a stronger relationship with us. 3) We spend the summer fixing up the house to get it on the market to sell, and each look for places of our own, as neither of us can carry the house on our own."
Does it sound like I am trying to force things? I guess it does. Is there another way to go about this? I know you say "Let go, Let GOD", and that is what I'm trying to do, but does that really mean just do nothing and wait to see what W does, and then do more nothing. How do you know when you have fully let go - does that mean you just don't care about the outcome, or that you've just stopped trying to do anything... let the chips fall where they may? What if going to Retrovaille may be what God wants to happen, and He is leading me to invite her? How else would she know about it and end up there?
I'm off to Church now, but will be back with more later - feedback, advice, 2x4's always welcome.
