Divorce looming #13

[K4D]

I wasn't present when my W's mom was doing her talking. D7 was telling me about it later. W conveniantly didn't say anything about it to me. I did tell W this morning that if her mom doesn't stop with the bashing of me in front of my kids, me and her mom are going to have words. W agreed that she needs to stop.

I also told W to stop telling the kids that we have problems. I said WE don't have problems. I said I don't have a problem with you. I said you have a problem with me. W got mad and said fine.

I got the furniture moved into my apartment today after signing the lease. The dang cable/internet guy went to the wrong apartment and didn't show up today. So they are coming back Tuesday during lunch. W said she would be there to let him in so I didn't have to miss work. That was nice of her and I certainly appreciate that.

I bought the kids beds and my bed today. I gave the kids the master bedroom since it is huge and they each have a twin bed. They love the room. I took the smaller room since most of my time will be spent either with them or out in the main living area. I won't be using my bedroom for much other than sleeping.

Once I started getting the furniture set up, it started looking like more of a home. Even W likes the apartment. I think I can get used to it and even enjoy it once I am finished with it.

I am going to go to the store tomorrow to get some things that I like. I am also going to get some relaxing tea's that I can make in the evenings. I love my couches. They are so comfy. The apartment complex has a work out room right across from my apartment. So I will be utilizing that. And there is a pool I can see from my apartment so the kids are looking forward to using that. I will use it with them.

I'm going to catch up on some movies I haven't seen lately. I want to see that new startrek movie. Its supposed to be good.

I will have church wednesday night and sunday. I am doing meetup things with the kids. Now I just have to engrain myself in my own meetup activities.

Things are coming along. At first I did not want to sign the lease this morning. But once I signed it and started getting things set up, I started relaxing a bit about it. The only thing now is to make sure I have people interaction.

I'm worn out tonite from moving stuff. This is W's week with the kids and she is out having drinks again tonite. Its the third night in a row for her. I have the kids next week for my first week in the apartment.

I found an IRA that I have had that I never really looked at. Its got $4,600 in it. That is my fall back emergency plan should something go wrong. I hate to use that as my back up plan. But at least I have it for that. If I don't end up using it in the next couple of months, then I am going to invest it once I have my own money saved.

I think things will be ok. It will take some adjusting to at first. But if I excercise every day after work til I am worn out and then just spend the rest of the evening relaxing and studying during the week when I don't have the kids, I will get through this.

Today was hard at first and I initially was emotional in front of W.

Oh well. Set back. She is fixing to get all the time in the world away from me now. She said she has plans every night next week after work while the kids are gone. She said between that and chatting in chat rooms at night and working out if helps to keep her going on her own.

I need to pick up some projects that me and the kids can do together on the weekends.

Kevin