I'm real sorry that you're having to live this way. Good for you for staying strong for your kids. I hope ya'll have a great day tomorrow. And I truly hope that things work out for you.
It's a heck of a note when you can't tell your spouse that you love them! I know too!
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.