And here's where I feel so angry and sad. I feel like I was broken and thrown away.

The relationship started great and we were friends for so many years but as life got more difficult and complicated with jobs, kids, house, money, things got strained. It was a lot for me just to keep going. When things didn't go smooth she took it out on me. Over time she became angry. I tried as hard as I could to satisfy. She became dominant but resentful. I just tried to survive and lost the satisfaction of life in me. When she finally realized she hated what she had become, what I had become, and what the relationship had become, she chose to end it.

I'm angry I allowed this to happen to me. I'm angry she chose to throw it away instead of rebuilding.

How do I let it go?

"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh