bnd,,,,please understand that i am not ignoring everyones advice. i am trying real hard to get him out of my head. i wish so hard that i didnt think about him. i get so mad that he has someone. i do think of him as being dead and i try and think what would i do different. it works for awhile until i see a happy couple and then i get mad at him again. i want to stop caring about him. how long does it take to move on and stop thinking of him? after everything he has done to me why do i still love him? can someone answer this?????????? bnd, i do do things, but the thoughts keep racing thru my mind. i have hobbies and friends but i still miss him.
Renee, again at the risk of you going off I am going to tell you a few things. I understand how you feel about being angry that he has someone, its not fair that you have taken the brunt of this and he has someone he is "crazy" about. Life isn't fair, sorry to say, I wish it was. I also don't believe in karma, many here do and that;s fine, but in my life I haven't seen it. I don't know how long it takes for you to get past this, I guess its up to the individual. I do know that you engage in things that aren't helping your situation such as looking on that facebook and listening to others who run and tell you things. All that stuff does is make you think about what was and what if. In order to move past this, you must really work at it. I am sure that you wish you didn't think of it and you wish a lot of things, but I really think you need to set yourself up a plan to follow and try to stck with it.
