Am trying to change me, trying every day...... yes, the marriage had struggles and issues but it was my marriage. Am I in love, its a difficult question to answer now I have to admit....... What you have said is food for thought though....thanks for the advice dondon I am definitely worth more than what he has put me and our D through, this I am certain about. I have up and down times; times where I am strong and then weaker times.... I guess everyone does