no no no.. going wrong already !!!! He called sounding down (?) at 5.30 saying he just fancied a film.. not at his, the cinema. After much silences and awkwardness (mainly me) and indecision, he suggested we meet before (not after) and drive there each, so meet there and go to the pics.. I was crushed.. I said, oh, didnt you want to come here first, or do something after then? (as we had sort of said this morning) he said... oh, i'll see, I'm quite tired... so then I didnt know what to say.
All I could think was, whats gone wrong? Has he had a think? Have I blown it? Is it moving too fast for him too? I wasnt intending to see him tommorow or all next week because of college but I was hoping to see him tonight at least, on a Saturday night.
So now I am very very nervous and desperately trying to remember what i am supposed to do in this sitch, not ask questions I guess, act normal, be cool with him dropping me home later and may or may not come in. This is very very very hard. I feel like THIS is my last chance, that chance I have been hoping for for 18 months and I feel this tremendous stress... did I do something wring? was I boring? It WAS a wierd atmosphere at his place this mornning, did he think this is a bad idea.. or am I just panicking????
