Sounds like a night of positives and more tricky moments. I'm so pleased for you and BF- it's really wonderful that you're going to get the chance to work everything out. Keep being patient with things and be forgiving towards yourself- it's completely understandable and only to be expected that you'd have thoughts of Helen in your head under the circumstances. Given time though, and possibly a new bed? that will fade and things will be better than ever.
