Thanx gfi had to really think of what you said. One of my biggest problem's is I am my worst critic and critisism is something I have to give alot of thought to. I became withdrawn over the years and when the work wasn't coming in I would blame everyone around me for my situation. therefore anger and resentment towards my wife and kid's. eventually she could stand no more and decided to leave. Hence I am at that point. Last night was a good night we sat around and watched tv. and joked around mild pillow fight and some slow dancing. I did not initiate any of this. I did not call her all day when she came home I made sure I was not there. When I walked in the door and was leaning on the kitchen counter asking her what she needed for me to get from the store she leaned against me as in "Iwant a hug" I put my arm around her and when I came from the store we sat down. All through the night it was her who would ask me to rub her feet. Something she always enjoyed and something I stopped doing along time ago. I told her I would brush her hair later she smiled and said "no you won't" that always was very seductive to her. I told her there were no strings attached it was just an IOU. She laughed and said "I have a whole list of IOU's for you" I smiled and said I know. Later she laid in my arms and gave me a very passionate kiss. When it came time for bed I did not initiate anything she actually pulled me next to her and wanted me to hold her (spoon). We have not done that in years. No sex and that was OK I told her I just wanted to be her friend again. We woke up and she acted as if she was happy I was there. Thanks for listening.
