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I hear you about the sleep! I am going to sleep a bit better these days but still wake up early. Really wish that would stop as it makes for a long day. I too struggle with the dreams, and even when its not H its more nightmares. I think stress brings a lot of it on so maybe try something relaxing right before sleeping? I know that sounds like a hard thing to do but maybe a bath before bed to relax might help?

I like what judyc said about looking at the stats the opposite way,in the way that 50% of marriages do make it! I too never thought I'd become a statistic but then I guess thats how I got here. I should have planned better like you said. but thats the past, we can't plan for the past, all we can do now is plan better for the future.

I love your list of goals for the day. I did something similar when this all first started and it really helped. I have stopped going that now and I definitely feel worse...so my goal today thanks to you is to start setting daily goals again! thanks

Everyone keeps posting about this Yes Man movie, I guess I need to check it out soon.

I can really relate to what you said about thinking about having kids. I felt H & I were about at the same point to start trying in the next year. I feel a great sense of loss that that is not an option now. My sister recently told me she was pregnant(her 3rd) and while I am so happy for her I felt sad that I am even further away from that now. At the same time I see how hard it is for those with kids and I would never want inflict that pain on anyone.

Keep working on those goals and keep your head up things will get easier and sleep will come.