This is so tough trying to "act" in the way to be effective, different, confident etc etc. I really want to be myself but I feel like I am going to a job interview.
Like you, I feel as though I did miss an opportunity here to shine, but I also do not think I backslid either. I just think I held my position but probably portrayed 'more of the same' which isn't going to get me anywhere.
I must take PM's advice and as you have said treat it like a mix and see what works. I must admit I have not seen any change in her at all but it is because I am impatient.
I know I should try and forget her, but she has gone to London for the weekend with a 'girlfriend' and it's killing me. I just cannot stop picturing scenarios, though as JCJ has said, alot of this is all in my head and I must stop punishing myself.
Thanks G for responding, I really appreciate it.
Mark
Bomb dropped: 19/12/08 Me:48 WAW:41 D:10 S:6 Married: 15 years
