PM Thread #5 - Hope new plan works

[PositivelyMommy]

Went for another interview yesterday. I don't know why but job opportunities abound this year and it feels great. The thing is that this is a one-year commitment. You all know that I am thinking of moving home this Dec so if I make a one-year commitment, I am pretty much stuck here for another year.

It's a tough decision because it's good for my career to take this gig but I know that I would be a happier person if I left to be with my family.

I talked to my brother last night about it and he says to keep all options open. The job situation at home is not great. Whereas I am building a nice little career here. So he says to ask if they could do a six-month contract instead of a one-year contract.

This is a nice problem to have. I can really push myself and do something new and grow with this gig. But I want to get away from H and show him that I don't need him around and REALLY live a quiet, peaceful life.

e.g. this weekend. He called to say he can't come around to be with kids today. I don't like it because it gives me a feeling of mistrust at the bottom of my stomach. I feel he is lying, no proof or anything but I just have this sense using my Wifely sense.

I don't want to go through this every weekend. It's not healthy for me. Don't know why he still feels he needs to lie.

I want to ask him, if he tells me a lie and I believe it, does he still think that he has told the truth?

Or

If he tells me a lie but I don't believe him but I don't confront him and he THINKS I believe him, does he think he has told the truth?

Or

Does telling the truth or telling a lie have any differences in his book?

Why am I put in the position of being his conscience?

I am NOT going to engage in a confrontation. That was the old me, I used to call him on it.

The new me will detach and not let it bother me. He has to live with his own consequences of his lies.

I will have a nice dinner with my friends.